Hey boo,
In June not only did I celebrate my 23rd birthday but I also celebrated 3months with my baby and 3months of being a mother. People usually say that it’s weird that I celebrate how long I’ve been a mother for and for me it just doesn’t make sense why one shouldn’t because not only is your child growing but you are also growing as a mother and discovering new things as each day comes.
Anyways, that’s not what we are here for (topic for another day), let’s go back to the 5th of June. So my daughter turns 3months and I have never felt so dissatisfied with myself an my life. I basically do the same thing day in, day out. I am learning new things daily about becoming a mother but I’m just not taking in the process, instead I’m pressuring myself to “do better” than what was done for me. Have you ever loved someone so much that you spend each and every day of your life worrying about what would become of your life should you lose the person? That’s how I’ve spent my 3months of being a mother, I am so scared to be away from my daughter that I wouldn’t want to leave her even for 30minutes. Is that even normal?
My friends call me an “overthinker” and I guess that’s true because I remember in the first week of June I had 2 supplementary exams that had already been paid for but I just couldn’t go and leave her for more than 4hours. I kept thinking of how my 14year old brother could mistakenly drop him or choke him while feeding him, paranoid much? Lol, Well that’s me.
Not only was I paranoid about leaving her alone, my weight was also a problem. I tried jogging but then I would feel an excruciating pain on my belly and my mum would say my womb has not yet healed and I was putting too much pressure on it, then I tried going on a diet which was a complete waste of time because baby Q(my daughter) would suck me dry and leave me super hungry so I would find myself eating every hour. Lol I became so desperate because people are always ready to ask you why you have not lost the baby weight, why you are “letting yourself go of yourself” and the funny thing is that it’s always the women who are the first to say negative things to and about other women. Why does that happen though? Why are we so ready to always bring each other down?
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Being a young mother 